48 hours and counting!
I can't believe that there is only 48 hours left to go. When I first booked my surgery, it felt so far away and now this week is just flying by. Yesterday I picked up some final items I needed, now it's just waiting. I have kept myself extremely busy this week with work and my kids to keep my mind from just worrying.
I've always been nervous about having this done, but now that's it's here - the nerves are increasing. I have never had any type of surgery before so being put under scares me-heck I have even a hard time getting a shot or an IV put in. Fortunately my PS told me that I could take a valium the morning of so that the drive to the surgery center is more tolerable for myself and my husband. I have to be at the surgery center at 6:30am and I live about 1 1/2 hours away. It's going to be a very early morning for us. We contemplated spending the night closer to the surgery center but I probably won't sleep much anyway so I might as well stay home where I"m more comfortable.
I'm also nervous about messing with my perfectly healthy body. For being 38, I am in the best health/shape that I have been in for the last 20 years. I've never had any type of health issues, surgeries or problems. I've had 3 kids, again with no complications - basically a text book case, so why risk all of that for this surgery? I've asked myself this question many times but the answer always comes back the same. I would not feel comfortable living with the breast size that I am for the next 60+ years! So I'm jumping in, and will deal with any issues if they do come up. I'm trying to keep a positive mindset to help me get through.
I think the hardest thing for me right now is not really knowing what I will look like in 48 hours! Since Dr. Pousti does not let you try on sizers (he does this in surgery), you really don't know what you will look like until afterwards. My fate lies in his hands! I wholeheartedly trust him, it's just so hard to imagine. I look at myself now and wonder what they will look like - did I pick the right pictures to give him the right idea? What if he makes me too big?
Well, it's the start of another busy day-I think I'm ready so it's just keeping myself busy for a few more days!
I've always been nervous about having this done, but now that's it's here - the nerves are increasing. I have never had any type of surgery before so being put under scares me-heck I have even a hard time getting a shot or an IV put in. Fortunately my PS told me that I could take a valium the morning of so that the drive to the surgery center is more tolerable for myself and my husband. I have to be at the surgery center at 6:30am and I live about 1 1/2 hours away. It's going to be a very early morning for us. We contemplated spending the night closer to the surgery center but I probably won't sleep much anyway so I might as well stay home where I"m more comfortable.
I'm also nervous about messing with my perfectly healthy body. For being 38, I am in the best health/shape that I have been in for the last 20 years. I've never had any type of health issues, surgeries or problems. I've had 3 kids, again with no complications - basically a text book case, so why risk all of that for this surgery? I've asked myself this question many times but the answer always comes back the same. I would not feel comfortable living with the breast size that I am for the next 60+ years! So I'm jumping in, and will deal with any issues if they do come up. I'm trying to keep a positive mindset to help me get through.
I think the hardest thing for me right now is not really knowing what I will look like in 48 hours! Since Dr. Pousti does not let you try on sizers (he does this in surgery), you really don't know what you will look like until afterwards. My fate lies in his hands! I wholeheartedly trust him, it's just so hard to imagine. I look at myself now and wonder what they will look like - did I pick the right pictures to give him the right idea? What if he makes me too big?
Well, it's the start of another busy day-I think I'm ready so it's just keeping myself busy for a few more days!
posted by Nikki @ 9/17/2008 05:44:00 AM
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