So long ago

It seems like it was so long ago that I had my breast augmentation. It is still something I am aware of on a daily basis, my breasts are softer than they have been but still do not feel natural. I continue to be uncomfortable lying down on my stomach, but I'm told many women with large breasts ( augmented or natural ) are uncomfortable in that position. However these things seem so minor to me, and really are just things I take note of so that I can give people honest opinions and tales of my experience.

The weather has turned cooler here, and I am finally starting to wear some of the new long sleeved shirts I bought from Victoria's Secret. Life is like a double edged sword for me right now....as much as I adore the lingering looks of approval from my hubby, I often have to remind him, " Down boy! " Something else I have noticed is an increasing interest from him where I am going when I get dressed and get ready in the morning. Like last week I took my 2 little ones to the pediatrician for a sick visit, and hubby gave me the third degree about the top I was wearing and the makeup I was putting on. The shirt was not revealing or even slightly inappropriate, but I think he's getting a little jealous? Regardless, when I get dressed and ready to leave the house or have company, I do it for me so that I can feel confident and good about myself. The initial attitude of " Let's show off the boobies! " has waned a bit, and now I am enjoying the feminine shape I see when I pass by a mirror.

As I have mentioned in previous posts, rightie is STILL higher than leftie. She also still does not have the projection. I keep praying and hoping, but there very well may be a redo in my future. I think I remember Dr. Vanek mentioning he would be able to go in an just open up the pocket a little more on the right side, and that could be done around 6 months. But I am taking a cruise at the 6 month mark so it will have to wait longer. That's why I keep praying for the best, because even though I can minimize the difference while wearing a bra, I'm pretty sure it will be quite noticeable in a bathing suit. I push the implants around and up and down and together on a daily basis, maybe one day I will wake up and not see any difference. Hey, a girl can always dream can't she?

What a week!

Well, my 8 week post op mark came with some added stress! 2 days prior to my milestone and appointment with Dr. Vanek, a train decided to fall off the tracks near my home, and forced an evacuation for me and several hundred surrounding homes. Fortunately, no one was hurt during the derailment and subsequent clean up ( which continues even now, 10 days later! ) but the 4 days spent away from my home was a very tough time for me.

My 8 week mark was on day 2 of evacuation, and even though I am sure Dr. Vanek would have understood if I had cancelled my appointment, I wanted to make sure my boobs were in good shape. Like I told my husband, we paid alot of money for these girls, and I am going to make sure they are in tip top shape! I was able to verify the time of my appointment during one of my 10 minute police escorts into my home ( that's all we were allowed due to the danger of the fire that was still burning! ) so I made sure to leave my in laws in plenty of time to get to his office on schedule ( they live just over an hour away. ) My husband waited in the car in the parking lot with all the kids during my appointment, thankfully everyone was exhausted and he didn't have too terrible of a time with them. Our 4 year old even managed to lose his first tooth while waiting in the car, the tooth fairy visited him in the hotel later that night!

I was sitting in the exam room half asleep with a pumpkin spice latte in my hands when Dr. Vanek came in. He was aware of the derailment and such, and we chatted briefly about how it was affecting my home. During the physical exam, he did acknowledge the visual difference between my breasts. Rightie continues to sit higher than leftie, and doesn't have near the projection. He does feel that I have much more healing to do, as 8 weeks post op is still very early in this waiting game, but we did discuss what sort of options there are if she decides to be stubborn and stay where she is. He explained that no sooner than 6 months he could go in and try to re-open rightie's pocket. While pressing the implant down tho, he noted that it is able to settle down in there, so he recommended manually pushing the implant down on a regular basis. He also said I could wear the compression strap, which I agreed to, but the office didn't have one big enough for me. ( I took it as a compliment, my girlies are nice and big! )

My visit was comforting to me, it reinforced that I am not crazy about noting the difference, but also made me feel better about the possibility that it may all fall into place on it's own. I don't enjoy the thought of a redo so early in the game, but I will go down that road when necessary. I'm not so insane about the difference anymore, wearing regular bras has helped to hide it somewhat, at least under my shirts.

I'm at a place right now where when I am fully clothed and see myself in the mirror, I feel perfectly shaped. My breasts have given me a cute little curvy and feminine shape that I didn't have before, and I am totally embracing it! I have high hopes that this is only going to get better!

Showing them off!

I finally made it back to Victoria's Secret and did ultimately buy myself 2 new bras. One has underwire so I won't be wearing it anytime soon, while my crease scars are healing, but the other is the wireless Angel and I love it! I bought it in a nude color, so now I can wear whatever top I want! I wore a white ribbed V neck tank top that I had worn prior to surgery and WOWSERS does it look different ( better! ) now.

We celebrated my daughter's second birthday with a small family party, and I wore the striped Gap shirt with the new bra. Oh my.....talk about fun! The only negative thing I can say is that the outfit drives my hubby insane and he gets all hornbally and stuff =) I think I can handle it tho!

Running on the treadmill is finally feeling less " weird. " I continue to wear 2 sports bras, and I've noticed that the one combo is the one that causes the air pocket in my cleavage. I think I may just give up on the one over the head sports bra, because that's the one that causing the problem. It's rough running and trying to reach down your shirt and adjust yourself lol!

I will be seeing Dr. Vanek for my 8 week check, and I want to discuss the asymmetry between the breasts. Aside from that, I am loving my girls and have no complaints at all. I do still feel like breast augmentation was a good choice for me!

Is this thing ever going to drop?

Well 6 weeks post op hasn't been such a great milestone for me. I tried on some of the new tops I have been buying, and the asymmetry that was noticeable from day one appears to be even more noticeable to me now. I mean, you can even see it in pictures when I am wearing the tops! After my husband and I took the new pics, I just became depressed and frustrated. I really am trying to be patient, but it is very hard!

Aside from the dropping and projection issue that rightie is giving me, both of the girls are feeling so soft and my morning boob is slowly disappearing. I'm not sure if I have discussed " morning boob " before, but in a nutshell it is just that when I first wake up in the morning, both breasts feel very heavy and I feel like I need to hold them as I sit up and get out of bed. It's slowly improving with each passing day, and I am told soon I won't even notice anything. I am realizing that I'm starting to be so comfortable with my breasts, they don't feel so much like some imposters planted on my chest!

Every morning I put my Kelo-Cote on my scars and Cocoa butter on the breast tissue surrounding them . Everything seems to be healing like it should, and I think if rightie could just start to look like leftie then I will feel like I have the most perfect set of breasts ever created. I might not even have anything to complain about and what the heck will we do then??!