Think I jinxed it!
I thought it was kind of easy street after day 3, but I was wrong! I read that days 1-3 were the toughest for the majority of breast aug patients. Not for me! Day 4 hit and I was miserable. It wasn't even necessarily pain, there was definitely some swelling, and I don't know if it peaked that day or what, but my bra suddenly felt not just 1 size too small but maybe 10! I kept tugging at it and complaining and calling my hubby telling him " I don't think this thing is supposed to be this damn tight! " He encouraged me to call Dr. Vanek, but me being the stubborn person I am, I just suffered. Just not quietly!
I had some plans to maybe go out and take a drive that day, but I was clearly in no shape to do it. I was only taking Tylenol for discomfort, but that bra thing had me going batty. Then my emotions went totally haywire and I just started hating my breasts. Like I took that one thing with an uncomfortable bra and I blew it into a whole scenario of I never should have done this surgery and this is just ridiculous and I can't stand not being able to move and do every darned thing I want to when I want to!
I'm going to say now that I firmly believe my 4 year old took over my capabilities to think logically and reasonably. There's no other explanation for that insanity!
I told my husband numerous times, " Today is the worst day since surgery! " All things considered, it really wasn't that bad, and if that's the worst to be had, then this recovery will be a cakewalk. Sometimes, I think it was worse for my husband than it was for me. I mean, I was still doing stuff, but I wasn't doing everything that everyone was used to me doing. And after 4 days, it was starting to wear on him. I will admit that part of me felt like he was finally getting to see what I went through on a daily basis. But my husband does help around the house, daily, just not to the extent in which he was doing at the time.
I finally settled down after the kids were in bed and my hubby was off taking his nightly run. I think part of me was jealous that he could run and I couldn't. But I wanted these boobs right?
I had some plans to maybe go out and take a drive that day, but I was clearly in no shape to do it. I was only taking Tylenol for discomfort, but that bra thing had me going batty. Then my emotions went totally haywire and I just started hating my breasts. Like I took that one thing with an uncomfortable bra and I blew it into a whole scenario of I never should have done this surgery and this is just ridiculous and I can't stand not being able to move and do every darned thing I want to when I want to!
I'm going to say now that I firmly believe my 4 year old took over my capabilities to think logically and reasonably. There's no other explanation for that insanity!
I told my husband numerous times, " Today is the worst day since surgery! " All things considered, it really wasn't that bad, and if that's the worst to be had, then this recovery will be a cakewalk. Sometimes, I think it was worse for my husband than it was for me. I mean, I was still doing stuff, but I wasn't doing everything that everyone was used to me doing. And after 4 days, it was starting to wear on him. I will admit that part of me felt like he was finally getting to see what I went through on a daily basis. But my husband does help around the house, daily, just not to the extent in which he was doing at the time.
I finally settled down after the kids were in bed and my hubby was off taking his nightly run. I think part of me was jealous that he could run and I couldn't. But I wanted these boobs right?
posted by Millie @ 9/06/2007 05:09:00 PM
1 Comments:
Funny, I recently just had that kind of melt down, too. I regularly workout about 6 x a week and I had my surgery 10 days ago and am not cleared to go to the gym (other than walking) until next week, but my husband goes and I am so jealous. I think it's ok to feel like that and to feel a bit of regret while you are going through such pain and it's all new. I felt so guilty that I couldn't pick up my daughter- that feeling was the worse. I am still pretty sore 10 days out, but it's just because I haven't slowed down- cooking, cleaning, playing with kids, etc. I am so glad I read what you wrote, so I know I'm not alone in this boat. Thank you!
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