About me and my first consultation

I am a mom of two boys from San Diego, CA. I love being a mom! It is so fun and such a great job. I have breastfed for 4 years. That should give you all the insight in the world into my current breast "issues." I have ranged anywhere from an A to a D cup in my time as a pregnant lady and nursing mother. It is amazing how much the body can change, and it is also amazing that you can get your figure back with diet and exercise. After my second baby I really tried to eat healthy and I started exercising at least 3 days a week and lifting weights. I totally got my pre-pre-pregnancy body back (almost like before I had my first). I may be even happier with my more mature motherly body, except for that one missing link... the breast tissue. I am sure you have read on other blogs, websites and heard from other women (if not already experienced first-hand yourself)  that pregnancy, breastfeeding a baby, and weight fluctuation can do a serious number on the boobies. I love my breasts and was not altogether thrilled with the saggier, deflated version of them, but I had always been too chicken to do anything but dream about breast implants. After my second baby I had some extra skin in the labia that has caused me many problems.  I am not having anymore children so now was the time to get it fixed. The labial reduction surgery is really a no-brainer for me and really a necessity and not something I would consider an option. After making an appointment to meet with Dr. Pousti, I started thinking back to the breasts and made my mind up that I would just ask him what could be done about them. I had no idea if I needed a lift or breast implants or what. I had not done a ton of research at that point. I knew that Dr. Pousti was well recommended and I took some pictures of what my ideal boobs would look like. Before my first consultation my first fear was the anesthesia. Now that I have done a lot of research, I have faith that my Dr. will take care of everything and keep me safe in the operating room. As he said at my consultation, "I micromanage EVERYTHING in the OR." That statement alone put me at ease about the whole "what-if" of bad things happening while being totally out of it. Now that I am a couple weeks out from my breast augmentation, my fear is more of wondering if I made the right decision to go through with it at all and the future consequences of what could or might go wrong. You hear so many stories GOOD and BAD about how women feel about implants. It is just so hard to make that decision for yourself and you really do have to weigh the pros and cons. It is important for a mom and a wife to not do something to her body that will make her sick or have adverse effects down the road. I am very into eating healthy; I don't take medicines and I prefer to do everything naturally with herbs and vitamins. You could say I am very "green" conscious, but I'm not too overboard on saving the environment. So, for me to make the decision to put something into my body that God did not put there in the first place is not something I take lightly. I also am not doing this to get attention...I prefer after this to be able to wear clothes that do not draw attention to myself (except if I am with my husband!!!) I am just hoping to get a little back from what I lost after breastfeeding. Dr. Pousti recommended silicone because of my small frame and little amount of breast tissue. I am 5'10", 135 lbs. and small boned. I totally trust my doctor to make the right decisions, and I know he will do a beautiful job. It is such an unknown though about what the future will bring. So, I am in that in between excited, anticipating and anxious stage. Here are my before pictures for reference. I will post more pics after my breast augmentation on August 26th!!!!